A Memory of my Relapses
I was drinking REAL heavy and a friend of mine took me to “Dry out” in a Detox. I had never been to a detox ever and wondered about where he was taking me.. We pulled up in front of this old school house, and I thought oh boy.
When we went inside in the gym were cots set up everywhere. Turned and looked at him and said “I can’t go here” when asked why not, I said all these people are street drunks. Is this ego or what, he looked at me and said “what do you think you are” I stayed 5 days got out and drank the same day..
Another time this same friend took me to the psych ward and told me this is where I belonged because I was pure nuts. He told me the next step would probably be jail. I told him I have never been locked up before, he said ” you are now can you just walk thru the locked door.
I needed both of these to be where I am today.. If I had gone to a detox or treatment where they make your bed and place a mint on my pillow each morning, I would not have what I now think of as fond memories… Thank you all for allowing me to share just two of my many relapses. Some people get the message the first try, I admire them, but I understand the poor SOB like me that keeps picking themselves up…SOBRIETY REALLY IS A HOOT….
I was talking with my Sponsor about prayers to God. I pray to God in the morning for direction in my day.
Then I pray to God in the evening, thanking him for keeping me sober each day. That is all I do each day on Prayer.
I have also noticed that I also only pray when something seems to be not going the way I want them to. As of yesterday, I will be praying more during the day, starting with the poor Alcoholic that is still suffering, and I will pray for God’s guidance through out the day, not just in the morning.
God and Prayer is my mainstay in Sobriety; I cannot afford to let down of the spiritual part in my life.
Just my thoughts for this morning. I owe so much to God, Alcoholics Anonymous, great sponsorship, and people just like you…
Thank you all for being my friends in recovery. I love you all. Sobriety is still a Hoot for me…