A Memory of my Relapses
~by Charlie Vaughn
I was drinking REAL heavy and a friend of mine took me to “Dry out” in a Detox. I had never been to a detox ever and wondered about where he was taking me.. We pulled up in front of this old school house, and I thought oh boy.
When we went inside in the gym were cots set up everywhere. Turned and looked at him and said “I can’t go here” when asked why not, I said all these people are street drunks. Is this ego or what, he looked at me and said “what do you think you are” I stayed 5 days got out and drank the same day..
Another time this same friend took me to the psych ward and told me this is where I belonged because I was pure nuts. He told me the next step would probably be jail. I told him I have never been locked up before, he said ” you are now can you just walk thru the locked door.
I needed both of these to be where I am today.. If I had gone to a detox or treatment where they make your bed and place a mint on my pillow each morning, I would not have what I now think of as fond memories… Thank you all for allowing me to share just two of my many relapses. Some people get the message the first try, I admire them, but I understand the poor SOB like me that keeps picking themselves up…SOBRIETY REALLY IS A HOOT….
We can’t afford treatment. What now?
Addiction Recovery Resources for Families of Substance Abusers, Addicts and Alcoholics
Why Don’t They Just Quit? What families and friends need to know about addiction and recovery.
> Audio Book CD, MP3 (NEW!)
> Audible Audio Download (LISTEN TO 4 MIN. SAMPLE)
FROM : “A Memory of my Relapses” TO CHANGING LIVES FOUNDATION BLOG HOME
Memory Relapse Memory Relapse Memory Relapse
Your story is not untypical. Just keep going back to the 12 Step programs and you will make it. Use your sponsor a lot. Call him everyday in the beginning, the first several months. Talk with him about the steps.
You’ll be glad you did 🙂
I understand this story completely. I have been to 3 rehabs and still continue to drink. I go to AA and I have a sponsor. I can get some clean time and then just seem to have to have a drink and it of course ruins eveything. I guess i am one of the lost ones.